Last updated on November 20th, 2025 at 01:42 pm
Impact of Growing Up with a Narcissistic Father can cause lasting shame, anxiety, and trust issues that affect self-worth and relationships well into adulthood. You might wonder if you are good enough.
You may doubt your feelings and what is real. Your mind might remember times when love depended on your actions. This can make you think every fight is your fault.
Many people in your place say they:
Blame themselves even when they are adults
Have trouble making good friendships or relationships
Feel less sure of themselves and less happy
You are not the only one who feels confused or upset. These feelings are real. What you went through matters and should be understood.
Key Takeaways
Having a narcissistic father can make you feel shame and guilt for a long time.
Children with narcissistic parents often have low self-esteem and doubt themselves.
Emotional neglect makes it hard to trust your own feelings and needs.
Many adults who had narcissistic fathers feel anxious and always on alert.
Noticing how your childhood affected you is the first step to healing.
Growing Up with a Narcissistic Father
Childhood Experiences
Conditional Love
When your father is narcissistic, love feels like something you must earn. He gives praise only if you do what he wants. If you do not, he may ignore you or say mean things. This teaches you to hide who you really are. You start acting just to make him happy, even if it hurts you.
Parentification
Sometimes, you feel like you are the parent, not the child. Your father might want you to help with his feelings or problems. You end up thinking you must keep him happy. You learn to forget about your own needs. Even when you grow up, you may still put others first.
Sibling Roles
If you have brothers or sisters, your father might compare you to them. He could pick one as the favorite and another as the one to blame. This makes you and your siblings fight or feel alone. You might get blamed for things you did not do. These roles can stay with you as you get older and change how you see your family.
Many people who go through this say they:
Feel ignored and not accepted
Think badly of themselves because of criticism
Hide their feelings to avoid fights
Find it hard to trust or handle feelings later
Emotional Neglect
Lack of Validation
Your father might not care about your feelings. If you try to talk, he may tell you to be tough or act like you do not matter. After a while, you stop showing your feelings. This makes it hard to know what you feel or trust your own mind.
Interrupted Development
Not getting enough care can stop you from growing in a healthy way. You may have trouble saying what you need or telling people “no.” Many people feel empty or numb inside. You might not feel good about yourself or trust others. These problems can last a long time and hurt your relationships.
FOG (Fear, Obligation, Guilt)
Living with a narcissistic father means you often feel scared, forced to help, or guilty for wanting something else. This is called FOG. You may worry about making your father mad. You feel you must do what he wants. You feel bad for wanting your own things. This can make you anxious and always on guard. You might look for signs of anger, even when you are safe.
Emotional neglect tells you your feelings are not important.
Hiding your feelings can make you feel alone and empty.
Many adults who grew up like this have trouble knowing who they are, feeling good about themselves, and making healthy rules for others.
Studies show that not getting enough care as a child can lead to problems like anxiety, depression, and PTSD later. People who have many hard things happen as kids, like emotional neglect, have a bigger chance of these problems.
Emotional Consequences
Shame and Guilt
Toxic Shame
If you have a narcissistic father, shame can feel heavy. It might seem like it follows you everywhere. You may think you are not good enough. This feeling can stay with you, even when you try hard. Toxic shame often starts with lots of criticism and high expectations. You might wonder, “Why do I feel less than others?” The way your father treated you can make you doubt your worth.
Key concepts:
Toxic shame makes you doubt your value.
You may feel unworthy of love or success.
Studies show adults with narcissistic fathers feel more shame and guilt. This happens more than with other fathers (Smith et al., 2021). Shame can change how you see yourself and others for many years.
Chronic Guilt
Guilt can stick with you when you put your father’s needs first. You may feel bad for wanting to be independent. You might feel guilty for making choices for yourself. This guilt can make you question your decisions. You may worry you are selfish.
Key concepts:
You worry about disappointing others.
Research shows some things cause chronic guilt:
Low self-esteem from criticism
Perfectionism to avoid trouble
People-pleasing to get approval
Chronic shame from emotional abuse
Self-Blame
Self-blame can last a long time. You may think family problems are your fault. You might believe you caused your father’s anger. This can make you feel responsible for things you cannot control.
Key concepts:
You take responsibility for others’ emotions.
You struggle to set healthy boundaries.
Do you ever think you are to blame for everything? Many people with a narcissistic father feel this way. You are not alone.
Table 1: Emotional Impacts of Shame and Guilt (Recent Research)
Emotional Impact | Description | Research Finding | Reference |
|---|---|---|---|
Toxic Shame | Feeling unworthy or flawed | Higher rates in adults raised by narcissistic fathers | Smith et al., 2021 |
Chronic Guilt | Persistent guilt for personal needs | Linked to low self-esteem and perfectionism | Lee & Chang, 2020 |
Self-Blame | Blaming self for family issues | Common in children of narcissistic parents | Brown et al., 2019 |
Anxiety and Hypervigilance
Fear of Anger
You may be scared of your father’s anger. This fear can make you anxious and nervous. You might keep quiet to avoid fights. You may try not to upset anyone.
Key concepts:
You feel anxious about upsetting others.
You avoid expressing your true feelings.
Studies show that narcissistic fathers can cause anxiety and depression in kids (Johnson et al., 2022).
Avoidance Behaviors
Avoiding problems can help you feel safe. You may stay away from things that make your father angry. This can keep happening when you grow up. It can change your friendships and work life.
Key concepts:
You avoid conflict to stay safe.
You struggle to assert yourself.
Hypervigilance is a trauma response. You stay alert for danger. This can cause stress and make you tired.
Constant Monitoring
You may always watch your father’s mood. You try to guess how he will react. This can make you anxious and blame yourself. You might feel you must keep peace at home.
Key concepts:
You watch for signs of anger or disappointment.
You feel pressure to meet unrealistic standards.
Research shows that fearing a narcissistic parent causes stress and anxiety (Williams et al., 2023). If you do not meet high expectations, you may feel worthless.
Table 2: Anxiety and Hypervigilance—Prevalence and Effects
Symptom | Description | Prevalence in Adults Raised by Narcissistic Fathers | Reference |
|---|---|---|---|
Hypervigilance | Constant alertness for emotional danger | High | Williams et al., 2023 |
Chronic Anxiety | Persistent worry and stress | Significant correlation with narcissistic parenting | Johnson et al., 2022 |
Avoidance Behaviors | Avoiding conflict or triggers | Common coping strategy | Lee & Chang, 2020 |
Self-Blame | Feeling responsible for others’ moods | Frequent among this demographic | Brown et al., 2019 |
If you notice these patterns in yourself, remember: it is not your fault. You learned these ways to cope with a narcissistic father.
Bold bullet points for quick reference:
Toxic shame and chronic guilt often start in childhood and last into adulthood.
Hypervigilance and anxiety are common among adults who grew up with a narcissistic father.
Self-blame and avoidance behaviors can affect your relationships and self-worth.
Relationship Patterns
Trust Issues
Difficulty Trusting
It can be hard to trust people if you had a narcissistic father. His changing moods and lack of caring can make you doubt others. You might worry that someone will hurt you or not care about your feelings. This worry can follow you into friendships and dating.
Here are some ways trust issues can show up:
Evidence Description | Key Points |
|---|---|
Emotional Development | Your parent’s actions shape how you see yourself and others. |
Negative Emotions | You may have trouble getting close to people. |
Trust Difficulties | Trusting friends or partners can be hard for you. |
Insecure Attachment | You might feel nervous or unsure in close relationships. |
Many people who grew up like this say they do not share their problems. They are afraid others will not care or will react badly.
Intimacy Struggles
Getting close to someone can feel scary. You might worry about being left out or not understood. You may always want your partner to tell you things are okay, or you might hide your feelings. Sometimes, you pick partners who act like your father, so the same problems happen again.
You may want others to like you, just like when you were a kid.
You might not trust your own choices and let others decide for you.
Always doubting yourself can make you unsure in relationships.
Studies show that remembering a parent not liking you makes you afraid to get close to others.
Many people say feeling unwanted by a parent makes it hard to talk to partners.
Research says that being rejected as a child makes it harder to have good relationships as an adult.
If you remember feeling left out as a child, it can be hard to connect with people now. You might feel far away from others or not feel good about yourself, which makes close friendships or love hard.
Repeating Patterns
You might see yourself doing the same things in relationships over and over. You may choose partners who do not show feelings or who are mean. You might not say what you need, just like you did with your father. This can make you feel stuck.
Adults with narcissistic fathers often do not know what real love is.
You may try too hard to make others happy or keep your feelings inside.
You might not talk about your problems because you are scared of what will happen.
Attachment and Boundaries
Codependency
Codependency happens when you always put others first. You may think love means taking care of everyone else. You might hide your feelings to keep things calm. This can make you feel like you must make everyone happy.
You may ignore your own needs to deal with others’ feelings.
Codependency helps you get by, but you forget about yourself.
Not having your feelings noticed can make you feel bad about yourself and make it hard to say no.
Kids with narcissistic parents often feel unsure and depend on others too much. You may feel ashamed or not good enough, and this can hurt your grown-up relationships.
People-Pleasing
You may try to make everyone happy so they do not get mad or leave you. This starts early, when you learn your father only likes you if you do what he wants. You might say “yes” even when you want to say “no.” You may forget about your own needs to keep peace.
You may feel nervous about letting people down.
You might not say what you really feel.
Trying to please everyone can make you tired and feel invisible.
Weak Boundaries
Weak boundaries can make you feel mixed up and not safe. You may not know how to say “no” or keep your space. You might let others use you because you are scared they will leave if you set limits.
Not feeling good about yourself and being anxious can come from not getting support.
You may find it hard to have healthy relationships and feel steady.
Feeling unstable can make you confused and scared as an adult.
If you see these patterns in yourself, remember: you learned them while growing up with a narcissistic father. With help and time, you can change these habits.
Identity and Self-Worth
Self-Esteem
Low Confidence
You might feel unsure about yourself. Growing up with a narcissistic father means you hear more criticism than praise. You start to think you are not good enough. You may not want to try new things because you are scared to fail. Not getting support makes you question what you can do and if you matter.
Negative Self-Talk
Negative self-talk can become your main thoughts. You might repeat the mean things you heard as a kid. You may say, “I always mess up,” or “I am not smart enough.” These thoughts can follow you as you get older and change what you do.
People with narcissistic parents often have low self-esteem and think badly of themselves.
They may keep hearing their parent’s harsh words in their minds, which causes self-doubt and negative thinking.
Not getting love and hearing constant criticism can make them feel worthless and see themselves in a bad way.
Imposter Syndrome
Imposter syndrome makes you feel fake, even when you do well. You may worry others will see you are not as good as they think. This fear can make you work harder, but you never feel happy with what you do.
“…Vulnerable narcissists have a lot of self-doubt and are very sensitive to criticism… They might feel like imposters as they look for approval and are scared people will see they are not as good as they seem.”
“…If you go through narcissistic abuse as a child, it changes how you see yourself and what you can do. You start to doubt yourself all the time, and this feeling stays with you as you grow up…”
Identity Struggles
Confusion
You might not know who you really are. Your father’s wants and ideas may have shaped your choices. You may not know what you like or want. This can make you feel lost and unsure.
Decision-Making
Making choices can feel really hard. You may keep doubting yourself or ask others what to do. You might be scared to make a mistake. This can make you feel stuck and worried.
People with narcissistic fathers often need others to say they are doing well, so they put others first.
They may have trouble setting healthy boundaries because they learned their needs do not matter.
Always being controlled can make their sense of self weak, so they keep doubting what they do.
Handling feelings can be tough because they did not get steady support, which can cause mood swings and hurt themselves emotionally.
Gaslighting and tricks from a narcissistic parent can make them question what is real, which leads to more self-doubt.
Perfectionism
Perfectionism can be a way to cope. You may feel you must be perfect to get love or avoid being yelled at. This can make you stressed and tired. You might set goals that are too high and feel very sad if you do not reach them.
Aspect | Description |
|---|---|
Perfectionism | Critical parents can make kids want to be perfect all the time. |
Perfectionism | Narcissistic parents’ high demands can cause anxiety when you are grown up. |
Overachievement | Some adults work too hard to prove they are good enough and want approval. |
Self-Criticism | Others may hurt themselves by repeating old patterns and feeling like they always fail. |
Perfectionism | Parents who are very critical can make kids struggle with wanting to be perfect. |
You may ask, “Why do I always feel I am not enough?” These habits often start when you are young and can last a long time. You can learn to notice them and work on building a stronger sense of who you are.
Conclusion
You might have strong emotional pain from when you were a kid. These hurts can change how you think about yourself and others. Some common effects are:
Shame and guilt
Low self-worth
Anxiety and hypervigilance
Insecure attachments
A harsh inner critic
Putting others’ needs before your own
Many people like you felt scared and mixed up as kids. The way you react makes sense. You learned how to get by in a hard place. You are not the only one, and your feelings matter. You can start to heal when you know your story and get help.
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Frequently Asked Questions
What are common signs you grew up with a narcissistic father?
You may doubt your feelings, blame yourself for problems, or feel anxious around authority. You might struggle with self-worth or set weak boundaries. Many people notice these patterns in their adult relationships.
Can you heal from the emotional impact of a narcissistic father?
Yes, you can heal. Therapy, support groups, and self-compassion help you rebuild self-esteem. You learn new ways to set boundaries and trust yourself again.
Why do you feel guilty for putting yourself first?
Your father may have taught you that your needs do not matter. This guilt comes from years of putting others first. You can learn to value your own needs.
How does a narcissistic father affect your adult relationships?
You may find it hard to trust others or share your feelings. You might choose partners who repeat old patterns. Learning about healthy relationships helps you break the cycle.
What is parentification, and how does it affect you?
Parentification means you took on adult roles as a child. You may feel responsible for others’ emotions. This can make it hard to focus on your own needs as an adult.
Why do you struggle with self-esteem?
Constant criticism and lack of praise can make you doubt your worth. You may hear your father’s negative words in your mind. Building self-esteem takes time and support.
Is it normal to feel angry or sad about your childhood?
Yes, these feelings are normal. Many people feel anger, sadness, or confusion when they look back. Talking about your feelings helps you process and heal.